Okay, so I’m stuck and I don’t know what to do.
When I moved back to this area, my intention had been to live with mom and dad for a little while, so I could pay off some debts while being rent-free. My truck is paid for as of last month and now I’m working on my credit cards.
But I don’t know how much longer I can take living there. I love my family, of course, but living with them feels very restrictive right now. I have my old bedroom from when I was growing up, but it’s full of junk… mostly all the stuff I brought back from my old apartment. I feel cramped.
Technically, I could afford to move out now. The truck payment was my biggest non-rent expense. But I don’t know what good moving out would do.
I’ve wanted for a couple years now to try living downtown for a few reasons. First, I think it’d be kind of fun. Second, it’s REALLY convenient to where I work now. Third, I don’t like to drive and living downtown would ease that necessity to an extent… even if it’s just the daily commute to and from work.
Of course, the main disadvantage is that it’s really expensive, and I don’t have a roommate to share the cost with. There’s also the fact that I’m not always particularly social, yet I’ll be surrounded by people all the time. I suppose that’s easy enough to deal with though… I’m pretty good at just ignoring people who don’t interest me, so maybe it’s not that big a deal.
Fuck it. Doesn’t make any difference anyway. I’m not going to be any happier there, I’ll just have a little more breathing room.
There’s always Ohio. I’m at least a little bit wanted there… Angela has her issues, but she’s a good person and has at least expressed a LITTLE interest in a relationship with me, which is more than I can say about any other girl I’ve met in, like, forever. Female friends are easy enough to come by. Finding one that wants anything more is rather difficult. And don’t tell me it isn’t.
I’m feeling bitter today.
More later, if I find it necessary.
When I moved back to this area, my intention had been to live with mom and dad for a little while, so I could pay off some debts while being rent-free. My truck is paid for as of last month and now I’m working on my credit cards.
But I don’t know how much longer I can take living there. I love my family, of course, but living with them feels very restrictive right now. I have my old bedroom from when I was growing up, but it’s full of junk… mostly all the stuff I brought back from my old apartment. I feel cramped.
Technically, I could afford to move out now. The truck payment was my biggest non-rent expense. But I don’t know what good moving out would do.
I’ve wanted for a couple years now to try living downtown for a few reasons. First, I think it’d be kind of fun. Second, it’s REALLY convenient to where I work now. Third, I don’t like to drive and living downtown would ease that necessity to an extent… even if it’s just the daily commute to and from work.
Of course, the main disadvantage is that it’s really expensive, and I don’t have a roommate to share the cost with. There’s also the fact that I’m not always particularly social, yet I’ll be surrounded by people all the time. I suppose that’s easy enough to deal with though… I’m pretty good at just ignoring people who don’t interest me, so maybe it’s not that big a deal.
Fuck it. Doesn’t make any difference anyway. I’m not going to be any happier there, I’ll just have a little more breathing room.
There’s always Ohio. I’m at least a little bit wanted there… Angela has her issues, but she’s a good person and has at least expressed a LITTLE interest in a relationship with me, which is more than I can say about any other girl I’ve met in, like, forever. Female friends are easy enough to come by. Finding one that wants anything more is rather difficult. And don’t tell me it isn’t.
I’m feeling bitter today.
More later, if I find it necessary.
posted by Tiergan at 2:54 PM
4 Comments:
being gay isn't an issue, its a lifestyle.why don't you poke around downtown?oh,and we are planning to clean up the appartment-and then you can crash there when you want-even if you don't like that sort of thing.
where are you?
where are you?
At this particular moment?
I'm at the AutoZone building on Front Street. I am usually there from 8 a.m. to 5 p.m.
If you meant where I'm living currently, it's in Marion, AR. Just right across the bridge. About a 15-20 minute drive from downtown (depending on traffic).
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